Sit and drink tea

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Firstly I want to thank all of you who have taken the time to email me with your good thoughts, hugs, best wishes and encouragement. Some of you have experienced where I am; you know how helpful it is to hear from someone who has been through the same thing.

One of the good things to come out of this experience is that I’m learning how to live my life differently. After 60 years, my old identity no longer fits, so I’m having to think about who I am outside of what I do. It’s painful and there are moments when I simply can’t move or think. This is a new experience for someone who was always on the go and always thinking of the next thing! I’m learning to be aware of my thoughts without having to act on them. It goes something like this ‘Oh, it would be fun to do ______! I can begin tomorrow! First I must do _____ and then ____. Maybe I could also add ______.”

At this point I become exhausted and often tearful as I realize that I simply don’t have the energy to do anything at all.

Except sit and drink tea.

I saw my doctor last week and she asked how I was doing. I explained the ups and downs I’m experiencing and her advice was, “Sit and drink tea. That’s all you have to do now. Just sit and drink tea”.

OK. I can do that. For now, that’s enough.

 

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2 thoughts on “Sit and drink tea

  • Wow. I envy you the courage to make such a daunting change. And I wish you all success.
    I have loved your writing and spent a fair amount of time with the red arrow and green squiggly’s – trying to adapt to myself.
    Julie

  • God bless you, dear Kathy. My own struggles with mental health and teaching music are different but I feel such a longing to give you a great big hug when I hear your story. I’ve been drawn to your blogs and to you because I feel like you are someone very like me, whose just a little further down the road of life than I am. You love and taught music, you embroider, and have studied at the RSN (one of my dream goals) and now I find we also share the challenge of struggling with mental health problems. Thanks for being my mentor, and my example. I hope you will learn that it’s okay for this period to be hard. And others have and will benefit from the way you’ve shared about these challenges.

    All my love,
    Sarah

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